Bookish Chats with Lily // My Hiatus

(Bookish) Chats with Lily // In Which I Reveal the Truth Behind My Hiatus

Hi hello hi, all of you wonderful human beings!! 💖
I hope you’re having the most fabulous Pride month! ✨🌈

It’s been a while. I’m very much inclined to picture you all sitting somewhere sunny, sipping on a cool drink—or, alternatively, bubble tea—with a cute, rainbow-colored straw floating around, reading all the five star books, and basically living your best lives. Because you deserve it.

Clink Classes — Brooklyn Nine-Nine GIF(Meanwhile, I still have about a month of my semester left that I hope to survive in one piece, le cry.)

I’VE MISSED YOU ALL SO MUCH, AND I’VE MISSED BLOGGING SO MUCH, and I can’t believe it’s been six months since I last put down my thoughts in a (Bookish) Chats with Lily post, and several months since I blogged overall??

Let’s get to the bottom of that.

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Since I intimated to revealing the Truth behind my absenve in the title of my blog post, let’s start with that! The truth is, there are actually several reasons that have kept me from blogging; classes and internships that included a lot of being at uni/lab from 8-18pm, exams every week, on average, and then also simply real life, which includes my immensely aggravating mental health situation aka severe anxiety, panic attacks, depressive episodes … it’s been a Ride, to say the least.

(We shall neglect a much more concerning reason, being that someone actually tried to hack my into my WordPress account, and I had no access to my blog at all for what feels like an eternity—I prefer not to dwell on it too much.)

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I’m so close to being done with my semester, though, and I can’t tell you how ready I am to not have to constantly study, or feel bad about not studying. Uni has truly taken its toll on my sleep schedule, my mental health, and my relationships.

The end of my semester also signifies the beginning of my summer internship at a hospital! I’m both anxiously dreading it, and very excited to put all my acquired knowledge to use.

Science lab GIF

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I’ve always been honest and open with you about my blogging journey, and I feel like it’s important that I keep doing that, and reiterate that blogging’s not all sunshine and rainbows (and you’re not alone with your struggles), all the time.

Thus, I’d like to fill you in on how this blogging hiatus has affected me.

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There’s an entirely different kind of anxiety that cast its shadow over my already plenty anxious self, while I wasn’t able to blog—let alone read. The fear that all of you would desert my blog and forget about me, that publishers wouldn’t take me seriously anymore, that I’d damage my chances of receiving ARCs (which, being an INTL blogger, is hard enough already) … the list goes on.

If you’ve followed me for a while, you know that I used to read an average of thirty books per month, post three times a week, and blog-hop a.k.a. devour & comment on my favorite blogs’ posts religiously last year.

This year, the number dropped to about ten books per month (and only because I severely ignored and procrastinated on studying the last week), not a single blog post in months, and basically dropping off the face of the earth when it comes to blog-hopping.*

*Please send all your new (and old) favorite bloggers my way!! I’m so out of the loop.

Basically, I felt like a complete failure of a book blogger.

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A huge thanks goes to so many people I couldn’t be more thankful for and appreciative of: who made my hiatus, and the bad feelings that accompanied it, a lot easier to deal with.

Most importantly, my fellow #YARC2019 co-hosts, CW @ The Quiet Pond, Vicky @ Vicky Who Reads, and Shealea @ Shut Up, Shealea. I LOVE YOU. Thank you for being so amazing, and understanding, and basically, the best people in the world—I’m beyond ready to scream about all the Asian books right alongside you here on my blog again!!

yarc headerAn update on the books I’m reading for YARC 2019 (I FOUND FAVES) is coming your way soon!!

Much love and appreciation also goes to everyone from publishers to authors to friends in the book community (you know who you are!! ANGELS) who frequently reached out to me, sent me ARCs, tagged me in posts, boosted and showed love to my blog posts, bore with me through late replies, forgotten-about messages that I left on read (sleep-deprived, and anxiety-ridden), missed deadlines for reviews … and listened to me rant about exams, and studying, and life—I have no words for how much your kindness and support means to me! 💘

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I’m also so incredibly excited about the 2019 Book Blogger Awards, hosted by one of my first friends and favorite people in the book community, May @ Forever and Everly!! I’m still working on my official nomination post, but I’m so excited to be able to boost fellow book bloggers again.

Click this trés cute graphic to find out how to participate!

The Third Annual 2019 Book Blogger Awards — Forever and Everly

You don’t have to be a book blogger to nominate your favorite bloggers, by the way! You can nominate book bloggers as an author, or an avid book blog reader as well—basically, if you’re able to read this blog post, you can nominate them for a variety of categories here! The form closes on Saturday, July 20th, so be sure to do so until then!

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Seeing as I haven’t posted in a long time, I will definitely talk about all the books I’ve been reading in another post soon! I’ve been drawn to adult literary fiction lately (lowkey rip me, I’m nowhere near ready to deal with this whole adulting business), which came as a complete surprise to me, and pretty much out of nowhere—but I’m just going to cruise with it. 🌊

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I’m one of those people who always go “I don’t have enough time to watch an entire movie!! Two and a half hours?? W h a t”, and then watch one episode of a TV show after another (anyone relate?). It’s a case of logic and moi being incompatible, clearly.

So, all I’m able present to you are three TV shows;

  • GREY’S ANATOMY. I’ve lost interest in this show, only to binge-watch an entire season in a few days, skipped seasons, and went back to watch them after all, so many times that I’ve lost count—but then I stumbled onto the most precious pairing online … and my shipper heart simply could not resist. Capital C, N, and R.

Dr. Nico Kim — Grey's Anatomy GIFWouldn’t you like to know who he’s aiming this devious smirk at … wink, wink.

  • SKAM & SKAM France. It’s pretty similar to Skins, as it follows teens’ day-to-day lives, but I actually prefer SKAM because of its vibe, and because it’s more relatable? It’s so delightfully diverse and inclusive of a variety of races, identities, and sexualities, and it portrays teens who are emotional, who let their emotions cloud their judgement, who are ignorant, petty, and bullies—but it makes you understand and feel for them. But they learn from their mistakes, and can admit that they’re wrong (which is such an important trait!!)?? J’adore.
  • MODERN FAMILY. I have a strange relationship with Modern Family. I have phases where I’m severely bored out of my mind by it, but sometimes I have the sudden urge to binge-watch it, and actually have a good time? Don’t ask me why, though, I have no idea. Currently, I’m aboard the love train, though! Tell me who your favorite character is, if you have one!! 💕

Sprinkles of Dreams - Let's Chat
What’s one thing that’s happened this year that you absolutely have to tell me about?
Have you cast your nominations for the 2019 Book Blogger Award yet?
(I refer to my earlier plight—which bloggers should I fall in love with next?)
Tell me all about your favorite books of 2019 so far!! 💗

xx, lily - Sprinkles of Dreams
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108 thoughts on “(Bookish) Chats with Lily // In Which I Reveal the Truth Behind My Hiatus”

  1. did i break my blogging hiatus to read this post??? you best believe that i did.
    IM SORRY TO HEAR that your mental health hasn’t been doing great 😭😭 i hope summer gives you time off to spoil yourself and spend hours reading and relaxing.
    blogging hiatuses are rough and they can really badly impact your mental health and that’s totally normal to worry about but LILY WE LOVE YOU AND WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU so you take care of yourself first 💖💖
    i cant wait to hear about all the books you’ve been reading and stacking up more books to add to my tbr.
    💖💖

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    1. AHHH MAY 😭

      Thank you so much, I hope so as well sndjfkdkfs minus the internship that should hopefully be the case! And ahhh I adore you, thank you so much, so much for your kind words, you’re my absolute fave!! 💕💕

      Sending you all good vibes & five-star books your way!! ✨

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  2. Welcome back, sweets! I know it is easier said than done (and I definitely can’t practice what I am about to preach here), but please don’t stress about needing to go on hiatus from your blog! I and many others follow because we love YOU, not your reading speed or bloghopping prowess. I know uni has been rough on you, and I hope this last month sails on by so you catch some relief. But if you ever need to talk to someone about anything at all, my DMs are always open.

    I can relate to your anxiety so much. The past several months I haven’t had the energy to blog hop like I used to (and love doing), and it’s kind of eaten away at me. You are working on so much right now and it is okay if your focus has to be elsewhere, we’ll be here when you are ready.

    I am so happy to see you on my feed though, love you!

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  3. It’s good to see you back, Lily! 😊 I understand that you had a lot going on in your life, and please do not be embarrassed or worried about being absent! You needed a break and you deserved to take some time off. I hope everything goes well for you when you finish your semester!

    And oh no, I can’t believe someone tried to hack your account 😦 That’s terrifying, but hopefully it never happens again. And ten books in one month is still a lot for me, haha! The most I’ve ever read in a month was 7 books, but it’s usually more like 3 or 4 now. Everyone has their own reading pace! But you are certainly not a failure in any way. 🙂

    I look forward to seeing more reviews on your blog! I hope you have a great time being back! 💕

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    1. Thank you so much, Xandra!! You’re too kind. 💕💕

      It honestly was!! I desperately hope that it never happens again. To be fair, a lot of those books are re-reads of mangas, haha. It’s hard not to feel like I’m never doing enough, but,,, I’m trying! :’)

      Thank you so, so much for your kind words!! 💖 Imprinting them in my heart as I type this—and I really hope you’ll like my upcoming reviews!! xx

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  4. AAHHH you already know how I feel about you coming back but I’ll say it again: I am so so excited to see you again in my Reader (and it’s okay if it’s not very frequent or not until a few weeks, because what’s more important is that you take care of yourself!!) and I missed you SO MUCH 💖💖 I am wishing you all the luck for the rest of your semester, and also your internship!

    And I understand your fears about blogging and relate so much to your anxiety concerning it. I didn’t completely disappear like you did, but I’ve beat myself up countless of times over how I’ve been much less active in 2019/2018 compared to 2017. And to be very honest, it’s definitely hard to pick it all back up again, but no one has forgotten you and you are not less of a valid blogger for taking a break and stepping back. We all love you very much, no matter what!! 💛💛

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    1. I know you said that I couldn’t do this anymore, but I LOVE YOU & I MISSED YOU MORE. And thank you so much! (It’s mostly motivation I need, tbh.)

      Ahh no I’m sorry you feel that way as well. 😦 But rest assured; you are so, so incredible, and you’re juggling school, and blogging, and dancing, and life in general & all in all just being a snarky, funny ball of Lila spreading love and light!!

      Love you so much!! 💛💛💛

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    1. It was only just a dreaaam~ (I just had to, oops). Thank you so, so much!! I’ve missed everything about blogging so much, and I’m so excited to chat more with you again & to buddy read with you soon, M!!

      And thank you for saying this ahh, it really means a lot to me!! 💙 (brb wiping away the tears on my cheek 🤧)

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