Tormented throughout middle school, Ellie begins her freshman year with a new look: she doesn’t need to be popular; she just needs to blend in with the wallpaper.
But when the unthinkable happens, Ellie finds herself trapped after a brutal assault. She wasn’t the first victim, and now she watches it happen again and again. She tries to hold on to her happier memories in order to get past the cold days, waiting for someone to find her.
The problem is, no one searches for a girl they never noticed in the first place.
I Stop Somewhere by T.E. Carter
Publisher: Feiwel & Friends
Genre: Young Adult, Contemporary
Publication Date: February 27th, 2018
I Stop Somewhere hits hard. It’s not pretty—it has no interest in embellishing ugly truths—it’s not beautifully heartbreaking, and it’s clear from the very start that this book does not have a happy ending.
The things we wish for don’t happen. This is how things really go.
I’d told myself to stay away from books that deal with the subject matter of rape, after I was completely eviscerated by the latest one I’d read, The Female of the Species, but some issues are simply too important to ever avoid facing, even if doing so might be uncomfortable at best.
The truth is, books that talk about rape and rape culture will never cease to be important, and it’s terrible and horrifying how the latter is still perpetuated by media outlets focusing on things such as what the victim was wearing, if she “liked the guy whom she now accuses of rape”, if she’s a “party girl” &c..
And I Stop Somewhere does such a brilliant job of portraying how public perception can warp facts.
“The court of public opinion moves much faster than the law.”
People still mourn the “destroyed, and oh-so promising future” of perpetrators, instead of that of the girl who was physically and emotionally violated. Parents still teach girls to wear less revealing clothes and act in a way that draws less attention to them so as not to “tempt” boys, instead of teaching those not to take advantage, and what consent truly is; that no means no, and that not being able, or of sound mind, to consent equals a no as well.
I Stop Somewhere is a reminder of what truly matters in life; it is filled with powerful and striking scenes, depictions of what it feels like to be young and try to separate yourself and your dreams, wishes, and hopes from what is expected of you, and of trying to find yourself, when you have no idea who “yourself” is.
It is dark, painful, and harrowing—but there is also a small sliver of light that seeps through its darkness.
(…) you matter. Your life matters. Every day, you count and you change the world by existing. You affect the people and the places around you with the ripples you send out into the universe. And when it’s hard to hold on to hope, when the light feels like it can’t keep burning, there’s a world of people behind you whom you’ve affected. They’re there and they have your back, even if you can’t see them.
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